The butterfly effect.

Everyday is a busy day, no matter if you have an early start to get to work and you’re running late impatiently sitting in traffic, or while you’re last minute studying for an exam you have right before you walk to class. Suddenly through your busy day something stops you. It stops you for one minute, and you forget about it all. You see this butterfly that suddenly you cross paths with in this slow motion of fast movement. Then you realize this delicate little butterfly is so simple and free flowing, and you don’t ever want to see it disappear. It makes your world stop instantly, and it seems to be the only thing that matters in that moment of time. You realize you never want to stop having that lightweight feeling of happiness, and effortless feeling of love towards that butterfly. You go on with your life and forget about that butterfly, and never will cross paths with it again.

Once again you have this busy life you’re living, on the go every single second of the day. So determined to accomplish what you have already had the mind set of doing before you have hit your second snooze button on your alarm. Daily routines you work into your school, work, and somewhat of a personal life you try to live. This time something different stops you. This thing that has stopped you in your pathway of accomplishing your normal routines, but it isn’t something that you want to pass you by. You’re intrigued because this thing that just stopped you in your motion, is the only thing you see in your world. It’s like time has stopped in this very moment to let you know that this thing is not just going to fly pass you and you can just go on with your day. This thing you just came across is this one person. This one person has now crossed paths with you, and you’re realizing that you’re starting to get this feeling in your stomach we call butterflies.

This feeling that you’re getting in your stomach that is making you feel so confused and crazy yet you want to feel more. You realize that this person you are getting to know, letting in your path, making you stop your day to day routines, and make you slow down time before time passes you is not going away. This person didn’t just disappear in front of your eyes like that butterfly did. The feeling you’re getting every time you see this person is so simple, and so delicate yet making you feel so vulnerable to keep wanting more.

Getting that butterfly feeling every time you see that person, think about that person, or talk about that person is the most beautiful thing you can ever feel. Those are the butterflies you never want to lose, and want to feel every single time. When you realize that you never have felt them in the past before, you suddenly feel that light weight feeling of happiness, and effortless feeling of love. You’re not sure if it’s love or if it’s just this feeling where you can’t get yourself to be open with this person and feel comfortable.

If you feel the butterflies every single time even weeks, months, or years with that person, you have gained something. You have gained the most powerful yet delicate feeling you can ever experience towards another person. It’s not that you’re uncomfortable and can’t open up, it’s that you have finally found the one. You have found the one before you even knew it. Before you knew this was the last first day of meeting that person you are going to spend the rest of your life with. Those butterflies are never going away, and that person isn’t either.

Life is the most complicated simple thing every person will experience. Hopefully you can experience the two butterfly effects once in your life, that’s all you need. If you do get to experience both, don’t let them pass you by. Stop your day for the butterfly that flies by you, and appreciate how beautiful life can be. Then stop for that person, and accept and appreciate that person who wants to experience how beautiful life can be together.

Help yourself before you help others

It takes one minute to think a million thoughts; it takes years to change for a lifetime. Change as in, freeing yourself to be who you are, to show you that what you have been doing everyday, every year, every time, has lead up to something so great. Something so powerful that not even you can understand, no one can understand. There are those times for everyone where they have this moment. This moment of a set back, knowing that everything has lead up to finding yourself, who you’re suppose to be. Everything around you suddenly doesn’t exist.

It’s like the world took you and spun you around, wrapped you around in your own world to make you realize that your time is now. Now is never, and never is impossible to overcome. Overcome the state of mind that has you so secreted in this mindset of thinking that everything around you, owns you, controls you. Takes your ability to make you see the never ending days of a revolving routine of abuse. Abuse to the time that you have been given from this world that has you spinning in all different directions. The time that slips away from your hands, before you even have the chance to grab it. Time is inevitable, time is unreal, but the reality that comes out of time is life. Your own life to do anything you want to do, overcome any situation thrown at you. No one said it would be easy; the world can’t let you walk on it like it’s not there.

If you can realize, and accept that time will never be in your hands, time is an imaginative feeling that gives you false hope that you can wait another day, another hour, another minute to find yourself. If you accept that, then your time is now. You will always have the desire to change the forbidden thoughts that are eating away at your soul, but wait on the “right” day to change that feeling. The hope your mind is giving you, and the chances you think you will take but never do. What is there to lose? Who said it was ever okay to live in a world full of hate, and despair. Live in a plan, a state of mind that everybody lives by. This sequence of events, that people base time off of, to feel safe and not have to question the actual span of time. Living day by day, just accepting that it’s okay to think it might change. Every single person thinks the world will change, but if everyone thinks someone is going to make the difference to change it for the better, then in the end there is no one to change it.

Every person matters, including you. If you didn’t matter then no one would matter, there wouldn’t be a world to live in. A world to make you think and question, what is making you spin around and around in the same direction, without giving you a path to follow. The only way you can make the world stop from spinning is to grab it, and bring it to the palm of your hand, and realize you control the world. You are the one that makes the change, to live every minute in motion, and defeat the feeling of what if, regret, and sorrow.

What you could have done, will never be gained, what you should have done will always be questioned. What you do now determines your faith of finding out who you are going to be for the rest of your life. Before the world picks it’s self up from the palm of your hand, and starts spinning again except without you, because your time has ran out. Learn to live, live to love, and love to learn who you are, and what you can accomplish for yourself from now until forever. Because time isn’t in the palm of your hand, the world is.